Monday, April 26, 2010

Beyond the Sunset

Sunsets hold a variety of memories for me. I remember riding through the mountains with my husband. We'd stop and marvel as the sun made its exit in a brilliant array of colors.

They mark the end of a day and the beginning of night. Little did we know we would soon face our own sunset. As life ebbed from him, the night season began for me. Tomorrow is the third anniversary of his journey beyond the sunset.

It wasn't an easy time, but God carried me in His arms. Now, the sun is peaking over the horizon. The dark night is giving way to shafts of light. I will go on. As Psalm 118:17 says, "I shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord."

Joy comes in the morning.

52 comments:

Jessica Nelson said...

Oh Susan, what a beautiful post. I hope today will be full of light for you.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jess -

Thank you. It's been a dark night of the soul the last three years. I'm ready for the sunrise.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Terri Tiffany said...

I am so thankful you are once again seeing that sun shine over the horizon:))

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Terri -

Thanks for your prayers and support.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Jody Hedlund said...

I just can't imagine what the experience of losing a spouse is like. I watched my Mom struggle with losing my dad many years ago and it was so hard for her. Blessings to you as your sun begins to rise!

Cindy said...

Thank you for posting that, Susan. Yes, joy does come in the morning. I'll keep you in my prayers today.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jody -

I think each of our experiences is unique. Through this, I discovered it was far different than losing a grandparent, parent, or friend.

Thank God for all the wonderful friends, family, and GriefShare for helping me weather the storm.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Cindy -

You're welcome. I appreciate your prayers.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Emily Ann Benedict said...

Thank you for sharing with us, Susan. I know your story will be encouraging to so many people. I know it is for me. :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Emily Ann -

You're welcome.

I hope it will encourage those going through rough times. They feel so permanent when you're going through them. Yet, the Lord brings us into the sunshine as we depend on Him.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Carla Gade said...

Susan, thank you for sharing your heart. Sunsets and sunrises, beautiful illustrations, a time for each.

"But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall." Malachi 4:2

Jan Cline said...

Isn't it great that God gives us rest in the darkness and refreshing in the light of sunrise. Sometimes the darkness seems to last forever, but it's the orbit that God put into place and the sunrise always reminds us that he is still there.
Lovely thought to start the week - Thank you Susan.

Karen Lange said...

That scripture has long been one of my favorites. Thanks for sharing with us. Praying for you, my dear friend.
Blessings,
Karen

Sharon Ball said...

Susan, your strength has been such an inspiration for me. Soon and very soon, we will all be with Jesus and I for one can't wait until His glorious return. Thank you for writing this beautiful post that so touched my heart today.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Carla -

Thank you. I love that scripture. :)

Blessings,
Susan

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jan -

Thanks for your thoughts. He carries us when we're unable to walk on our own. I'm glad I know Him.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Karen -

I've had that scripture taped to my computer for several years. Thanks for your prayers.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Sharon -

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. You've walked with me through this time almost from when Beloved was first diagnosed with leukemia.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Mary Ann said...

I lost my step-mom about 3 years ago and my dad has just begun to see the sunrise. He can finally celebrate the life they shared together. Last year my brother-in-law lost his wife... and he is still in the dark of the sunset. Such a beautiful illustration... and from the heart. It really blessed me and helps me to see the place they each are in. Thank you Susan. Praying for you.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Dear Mary Ann -

My condolences on your losses.
I'm glad my post helped you understand how they were feeling.

Although the Lord comforted me and led me through that dark time, it's difficult to describe the pain losing a spouse generates.

Blessings,
Susan

Jeanette Levellie said...

These anniversaries bring back memories both painful and sweet. May the Lord continue to hold and help you, dear Susan.

kristen said...

Susan-
May the God of all comfort be with you during this time.
I'm so thankful for a God who carries our burdens, and I pray He continues to lighten your sorrows as you start this new walk in the sunrise.
Love,
Kristen

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jen -

Yes, bittersweet describes my memories well. At least, they no longer carry a knife-sharp edge.

Blessings,
Susan

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Kristen -

Thank you for your prayers.

Blessings,
Susan

Faith Imagined said...

Susan, what a treasured moment. Your healing and trust in God is so evident in this beautiful post. Thank you for sharing God's goodness with us!

BTW - I'm curious if you are going to write something about the thief on the cross w/ Jesus. Now, you got my brain going. Bet you anything, He saw Jesus' ministry first hand. Jesus did hang out with the least of these ;-)

Faith Imagined said...

Beautiful words! Your hubby must have been a wonderful man to catch a special lady like you.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow.

Maria I. Morgan said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. You have a beautiful testimony and I pray that you will experience a magnificent sunrise! Hugs & blessings to you especially on this day!

Patti Lacy said...

Oh, Susan, thanks for sharing from your pain that joy does come in the "morning" for those of us who call on Christ. Sigh. I will pray that you will soon feel sun rays beaming bright and warm.

Blessings, dear one.
Patti

Jean Fischer said...

Susan, Thank you for sharing your memories with us. I've been praying for you and remembering that Tuesday is the anniversary of David's passing. May the Lord bless you tomorrow with a beautiful sunrise.

Hugs, dear friend.
Jean

Shmologna said...

Beautiful. I need this this so much.

God bless you, Susan!

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Patti -

Thank you for your prayers. :)

Blessings,
Susan

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jean -

I'm planning on doing all my normal Tuesday stuff, including working on my book. David was a great supporter of my writing. I think it would have pleased him to know I've written two manuscripts, and I'm working on a third.

Thanks for your prayers.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Schmologna -

I'm glad this ministered to you. Are you okay? I was at your blog several times, and all is silent.

If there's anything I can do, email me at susanjreinhardt (at) gmail (dot) com.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Maria -

Thank you for your prayers. I appreciate your kindness. :)

Blessings,
Susan

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Alisa -

Thank you for stopping by and commenting. I hope all those going through the loss of a loved one will see there is healing.

I'll have to meditate further on the idea and see what the Lord wants me to do with it. It might become a devotional, a short story, or even a book down the road.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Alisa -

Yes, he was a wonderful man. I'm glad we had some special years together.

Blessings,
Susan

Lily Robinson said...

Beautiful post. I can't imagine going through such a time without God to cling to. He is my rock.

I am thankful for the promise of joy.

Rita's Random Ramblings said...

Thank you for sharing these beautiful words from your heart. May God's love embrace you! Hugs, Rita

Nancy said...

Thank you for sharing such a sad but hopeful time with us. May the light shine brighter and brighter as you go on in the giftings of your life.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Lily -

I can't either, Lily. He is my Rock, my fortress. In Him will I trust.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Nancy -

Thanks for stopping by and commenting. I'm believing for a good 2010.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Rita -

Thanks for the hug. :)

Blessings,
Susan

Janalyn Voigt (WaySinger) said...

Susan,

God loves you very much. He holds you in His hand and keeps you safe. He is your provider and your protector. He will never leave you. He is the Author and the Finisher of your faith.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Janalyn -

Amen! He takes good care of me.

Blessings,
Susan :)

Jaime said...

may the Son's rays warm your face as you look to the horizon with hope for the future the Lord has planned for you

quietspirit said...

Susan:
I don't know how I missed this when I did my blog reading.
This is a beautiful tribute to your David. I know you still miss him.
God holds us in his loving arms and draws us close to Him and keeps us there as long as we need.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Jaime -

Thank you. Many of my hopes for the future involve writing and speaking. :)

Blessings,
Susan

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Quiet Spirit -

He was an extraordinary man, and I miss him very much. The pain may be a gentle sadness now, but not a day goes by that I don't think about him.

Blessings,
Susan

Kathryn Neff Perry said...

Susan, this is beautiful but brought tears to my eyes. Joy does come in the morning. I'm happy you have so many memories to recall. He must have been a blessing to you. I know you were a blessing to him.
Hugs
Katt

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Katt -

I've found tears are necessary to the healing process, and shed many along the way. Hopefully, at some point I'll be able write on processing grief or incorporate it into one of my manuscripts.

Blessings,
Susan

Sandra Heska King said...

Oh, Susan. I wish I'd made it over here earlier in the week. When I think of losing my hubby, I feel like my heart is sliced. What comfort, though, in knowing I'd meet him in the sunrise.

Saddness and joy. Bitter and sweet. How do people manage without God?

Praying for you.

Susan J. Reinhardt said...

Hi Sandra -

Thanks for your kindness. I'm doing okay even though I miss him a lot.

Blessings,
Susan