"I can't wait until I grow up and can do what I want." That line always made my parents laugh and roll their eyes. Why is it we think if we reach a certain age or achieve some goal that our lives will be perfect?
It's wise to have plans and move toward them. Yet chasing a dream won't satisfy the longings of a heart. It might provide a measure of happiness for a time, but the effects are temporary and often hollow.
As a writer, I thought if I could just get an agent and get my books published, I'd have it made. Yeah, the authors out there are having the same reaction my parents had to my declaration. With an agent and four books published, I can tell you it's a carrot on a stick that keeps moving out of reach.
I'm not downplaying the satisfaction of reaching success. However, writing doesn't define who I am. It's something I do that hopefully provides insights and touches the reader at a deep level.
It's easy to forget some basic things:
1. God loves me whether or not my books get published.
2. Loving and reaching out to others helps keep my perspective God-centered.
3. Any creativity I have is a gift from Him.
As I wait on this plateau where nothing seems to be happening, I trust that He's working behind the scenes. I'm not where I want to be, but it's a good place. There's time for reflection and enjoyment of the simple blessings. And, yes, I can wait.
Writers and Readers: How do you remain at peace while pursuing your plans?
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Staying on course when the fruit seems to not be happening, can be hard! Your words say it well--contentment and joy in knowing we are loved not because of what we do, but because of who we are. The stories of others who have gone through periods where they wanted to quit, yet kept moving out in faith, and learning and prospering in ways they never dreamed of, is helping me to stay on my course right now. And paying attention to the present He has given me.
Oh well Susan, such a sensitive topic... I feel you. I am in a period right now where I am seeking more time with Him and keeping my eyes focussed on Him and not my books or writing (or lack of it). Not easy, but worth the journey... I am learning :)
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