
Kathryn Lang continues her guest post.
"I wrote because I needed the money - and because I have a lot to say. My first writing job after the baby was born was doing posts on forums. That expanded into writing blog posts on everything from green living to horses. The only limit to what I wrote and how much I wrote was the dial-up internet.
My husband left his full-time job in 2007 and that pushed me to write more. The slow speed of dial-up became an issue, and we put our 2008 tax refund toward running cable to our home to get high-speed internet. It was great, but the economy tanked, and so did our finances.
Finding writing jobs became a priority - more important than the words that I was writing. The more I pushed, the fewer jobs I found I had each month. The ones that did stay around were the ones that touched on my passion, but I could only see that they were not enough to do what needed to be done. This was another one of those times where I wondered if God was messing with me. After all, I was doing everything I could do.
Then I quit.
I quit trying to make things work out. I quit worrying about how I was going to pay the bills. I quit checking the stats on my blogs every morning. I quit stressing over the reaction that others might have about what I did or did not do.
When I quit trying, I turned to God, and the veil began to lift. I started to see the words I write are not about me, or my pocketbook, but about Him. He gave me the gift, the talent, and the passion to pour out words for others. The words must be all about Him.
I started spending more time with Him. Prayer time became a priority for my morning - no matter how late my day might be running. The moment He became the focus, the jobs began to expand.
The finances are still not where I want them to be. My consistency has not reached the level I know it needs to be. There are still a number of areas in my life where I'm struggling to let go, but I have seen the Truth and that makes it all a little easier."
Have you worn yourself out trying to make success happen? What stood out to you about Kathryn's story?